Heart Beat

Why does he do this to me? Making me feel numb. My heart beats extra fast when i think about him. What he did. What he's doing. Seeing him, it just makes me grin. He's adorable, funny, manly. He's everything. The way he speaks, he laughs, he smiles, he barfs. Its just perfect to me. No matter how bad his singing is, i wouldn't mind listening to it, forever. We skyped for awhile. From 11.40 pm until 2.30 pm. After, the connection just lost and all was just a blur. He said he's laptop does that sometimes, automatically turns off when it gets over heated. After, he called me. And ended the call at 4.33 pm. He gave me so much advice, so much to learn, so much to cherish. We asked each other questions and answered them with much honesty. He was really honest. I'm happy for so. He told me so many facts about himself. He even told me his secrets, some he did not even tell anyone else. He told me he believed in me. Oh, my grin was so big that i was even giggling to myself like an idiot. Ahaha. I told him my darkest secrets as well. What happens in my life, what i expect out of it. Everything. And he accepted every single one. He never complaint about how much i talked, nor he sounded bored. He was actually listening. I also listen to his stories, about how he met his first girlfriend, got his first kiss, everything. And, honestly, my chest hurt so bad that time. I kept clutching my heart. The pain unbearable. It hurt so much. I tried to laugh and smile. It came out, but it wasn't sincere. After, i dared myself to ask the question again. I had to.

"If i told you i liked you, would you like me back?"

He went silent for awhile. But he quickly says "I'm not sure...", but after, he told me about the girl he likes. He has liked her for 3 months now. She's very popular among the boys, he says. He made me feel so weak, so vulnerable. But suddenly, words of heaven reached my ears. "But after what we've gone through, the call and skype and all, if i haven't met her, i would've fallen for you straight away." Does that mean i have a chance? Do i?

But his heart still belongs to her. But i don't care, just being his friend means the world to me.