KOALA, hear me out.

Nic-kun, I love you. I tried to forget you, yes I did. But it just didn't work. I tried to remind myself every night to try. But I couldn't. My heart told me otherwise. I didn't know weather to follow my heart, or my head. And at the end, I followed my heart. It was giving me too much pressure. I couldn't think properly. I'm sorry for being one of those fanatic girls that fallen for a guy like you and get excited seeing you as if your a celebrity. But I can't help it, I have fallen deeply for you. I don't know what to do, my head keeps spinning. And my heart can't stop pumping everytime I think, or talk, or even scream about you. Why do you have to be the guy I love? There are a million guys, and why you? I don't think even I can answer that stupid question. I have made my mind to forget you one day, but I don't think that day is today. I'll think of something when you're married. I'll try to forget you then, if I can. But I don't think I can. My head is full of YOU. Not super junior, but you, plain old you. I don't know what to do. Your normal, I don't see anything unnatural about you, but there's one thing that you have, that other guys don't. And that's my heart. I wish I could take it back, but it wants to stay with you, forever. I hope you'll understand one day. And I don't care if that one day is a million years from now, at least you'll accept me.