Family

Hello. Its been awhile. I went to eat with Hana and her family yesterday. At Uti's house. Felt so good to meet her after months. I missed her. 

Oh, Sofea coloured her hair. She coloured it a chestnut brown. Which suits her. 

Nothing much really happened these past few days. I have been having mixed feelings, but not the love kinda feelings. More to the "like" kind of feelings.

Arman has been a sweetheart. Really. He cares so much. Even more than Asyreeq. Which is really... Wow. But i'm not ready for anything. Which is why i can't tell him how i feel. 

His ex has been feeling down graded and sad these past few days. I think its because of me. His ex is my friend. Sigh. But idk. I don't know what to say, what to think, what to do. Its all a blur.

Asyreeq has been giving me false hope again. By telling me that he misses me, by asking me out, by saying that he really wants to meet me. But i can tell he doesn't like me that way. I just can.

Fifi's ex, Akmal has been really nice. We talk alot. So i complain to him, and he does to me. Sometimes i wonder why Fifi dumped him. But i'm sure she has a good reason for doing so. Hm. 

I'm going out tomorrow, to Pavi. Planning to walk to H&M to buy a bag and shoes for raya. Pretty excited. Well, the ones coming will be Jeka and her friends but i decided to invite Louay and Zafran. Since its been forever since i've seen them. 

Yknow, nowadays, i've been pretty shitty about myself. I feel like i'm not meant to be happy. And i don't deserve anyone. Maybe its true. Maybe.

I've been listening to sad songs recently. It suits my mood a little. Well, i have assignments to do. So i gotta get to it. My dad just knocked into my room and asked if i wanted to go out. Hm. Maybe i should. Well, either way, i have to go. So goodbye. Until next time.