19 Years

11:31 PM

Hi there. So, finally. 19 years of living in this dunya. Crazy. A year wiser, in shaa Allah. I really want to update about what happened today, but i think i'll need a bit more time for that since i'm already tucked in and comfy.

I'm so thankful to Allah for letting me live and giving me family and friends that love me just as much as i love them. I'm so blessed to still have my parents around (in shaa Allah even until i have grand kids). Today, marks the new year for myself. So i need to set up new rules, and be more responsible with my choices. I'm already 19, i'm nearly 20. Which means no more duit raya sob sob. And more responsibilities. Sigh. But well, thats life. Just gotta live it to the fullest. 

I really want to be more confident, and mature. Being childish is okay, but maybe, tone it down i guess. I have alot of resolutions for myself in shaa Allah i'll be able to fulfill them slowly one by one.

In shaa Allah i will never fail to be grateful and du'a and thank Allah for everything he has given me. I am so lucky alhamdullillah. 

In shaa Allah i will be able to think more, and be more understanding. And accept people's choices, no matter what. Unless its a bad choice of course. 

I really hope things will get better from here. I really do. I hope i am able to cope, and endure whatever that may happen. And in shaa Allah i will always make the right choices. 

I believe being 19, will teach me alot. In shaa Allah. 

Here's to a new beginning. Here's to being a better person, inside and out. Ameen.