Life

You won't know how painful life is;
Until you lose someone, when you're no longer his.

When you made mistakes, even in denial;
When his decision is final.

When you're no longer a part of his heart;
When all he wants to do, is grow apart.

All the regret that flows inside of you;
When all the sorry's are long overdue.

When nothing you can do can fix what you've done;
When all you want to do is end it with a gun.

The worst part, is knowing its all your own doing;
The pain he kept inside, all the hatred that was brewing.

And when you notice, its just too late;
You can't do anything, he just won't wait.

No one else to blame, but you;
All the tears can't do anything, he's just through.

When no words can describe how you're feeling;
When you can't talk to anyone, but stare at the ceiling.

Feeling empty, numb, and dead;
When it hurts too much, you can't seem to look ahead.

Hoping its all just a dream, a nightmare;
Not being able to breathe, gasping for air.

Questioning how you could act like a victim;
When all you did, all this time, was hurt him.

When all you want is a chance to make it right;
But he gave you too many chances, a finite.

Its too late, you can't do anything anymore;
For him, its starting to become a chore, he's getting sore.

It hurts, knowing;
That you really tried to love, but your love he's throwing.

And its because you just didn't love enough;
When you thought you did, but to him it was a bluff.

Its unfair, that life throws you these situations;
But what can you do, you gave into temptations.

And you resent yourself for making him cry;
But you can't do anything to fix it, you're the bad guy.

And now you're just too scared to love;
The mistakes you would make, all the pain you'd have to shove.

When now you're just left with nothing;
But you're at wrong, who are you bluffing.

Life is painful;
It's even hateful.

But no amount of tears can heal;
The type of horrid pain that you feel.