Renovations

11.03 PM

Hi there! Its nearly midnight already and its a Saturday. I've been staying in a hotel, since a couple of days ago (i think). Since Friday, to be exact. Because my house is having renovations, and all. Its been fun here so far. Spending more quality time with the family. And Rimu.

Talking about Rimu, we nearly lost him yesterday. Me and my came over to the house, and heard Rimu wasn't in this cage, and the top part of his cage was around 5 feet away from the table. Obviously it got me really worried... We then arrived at the house and i quickly ran upstairs, and true to what i heard, he was gone. We searched high and low for him but we couldn't find him whatsoever. We were terrified of the possibilities of what could have happend to the little guy... Number 1 being that he got eaten by a cat.

We were devastated... Well, i was. Very. I went to my room and cried to myself. Just thinking of how awful i was, for not caring for my hamsters the way i should have. And that i should have brought him with me to the hotel, rather than leaving him alone. After me and my mom left the house, my bibik then called us to tell us that they found Rimu, downstairs. It confused me at how could a little guy like him go down, alone, unharmed? But yeah, Allahualam.

11.23 PM

I have alot of work to be done these 2 days, its crazy. I didn't go to school on Friday because i was exhausted and had lack of nutrients in my body. I went to go fabric shopping today, with my dad. I actually had other plans, but yeah. It didn't happen. But its okay. I got all the fabrics and accessories that i need and will ever need for this semester. InsyaAllah i got everything.

I'm going to be seeing Yana and Aina tomorrow. Yana is picking me up, so i can use her Adobe Illustrator for work and i need to complete it by tomorrow. Sigh. Its hard to work without a laptop... My teacher asked me to bring a laptop on Monday because we have a hands-on assignment to be done. Oh well.

I really hope tomorrow will be a better day. Better than today, better than tomorrow. InsyaAllah.

Here are some motivational quotes i got on an instagram account. I really need to be more positive, i can't drown myself. Even if i fall, i need to learn how to get back up on my own. I tried my best, and my hardest. And as much as i want to try more and more, i can't be selfish, or stupid. I just can't. Not anymore. I need to stop overthinking, and stop rotting my mind with my selfish thoughts.

I need to change. I need to be better.

Even if it means i have to do it alone.